time flies...

today i just noticed how time flies....everyday passes by us with us being more or less conscious about it...
i've been in sweden for 9 months and hopefully it will be some more time....meanwhile i am going home over the summer? but actually would that be my home? will i be feeling like home there? i've been feeling like home here, knowing lovely people that have really really been a pleasure to be around....
and now home? well the first image is my old red room, with the smell of candles i always have there, with the black old piano that reminds me of my childhood and the tone of clothes i have back home....but it is just material stuff....just stuff that i thought i could never live without and now after 9 months i can say that i can live a lifetime without them....
my parents....they are my home....but i am gonna see them in 3 weeks....
this sweden experience has really changed my perspective about what is more important in life...and it sounds maybe a triffel but actually i learned a pretty important thing...time is so short that you have to make the best of it and prioritize...you can't just go on thinking that you have the whole life ahead of you to do one thing or another....cuz you just might not know what tomorrow means....where tomorrow leads or who does tomorrow bring in your life.. it is all a matter of choice and each point can lead to some other one...you can just hope for the best way and that you will have TIME to lay back and say...i've been happy....

oneself...

before any kind of human interaction, one goes through a period when you don't know how to behave or to react...and even more when it is related to feelings....that just puts more pressure into the whole issue...
you fear that you will say the wrong things and that the other significant other won't like you but actually it is way better to be yourself....
sounds easier said than done.....
i have always loved this pre-period before a relationship and i consider it being one of the most beautiful things there are...it is a game - to give and receive, to act....but for how long?
actually why should you bother impress someone or be sth that you are not...actually at the end of the day when they realize that you were not like that you just create dissapointment....
but how do we interpretate signs? well i dunno....if i knew i wouldn't have been sitting here with my blog and i would be selling best-sellers on how to gain one's heart?
but i am no scientist.....i am just a girl hoping that same day i will get my prince charming on a white horse even if he might be not so handsome and riding a used bike.....
maybe the world would be so much easier if we all just started going out on the street and crying out hej mister!!! stop and give me a chance cuz i do like you!!! take my hand and just walk with me on this :)

well that would relaly be crazy wouldn't it?....where would all the romantic part have gone? the game, the tackling, the dreams, the waiting and moreover...the funny butterflies and the smile on your face :)

rewarding day....

and here it was....as incredible as it might have seemed some time ago i became 21 somewhere else than home...and i got the most incredible present one could imagine...a lot of my friends around me...

i am actually a really lucky person to have so many people around because i cannot live without them...and it is not just a cliche...

there had been so many memories from last year in my mind during this time, but somehow i managed to overcome all my fears and have a great time with them :)
it feels great and if it is one thing that i have learned this year here is that you cannot live without people...or at least i cannot...

every person has some moments of solitude when he/she wants to be alone to run and don't look back, don't give any explanations and just hear the inner thoughts...and i have had those too....but noticed that it doesn't last too long...as soon as i realize that i end up seeking for company, advice, or just presence....

one would say: why do you need so many people when you have the loved one near you? well....you know...sometimes if you haven't found that special half for yourself then you might as well fall inlove with the people around you....cuz they won't let you down...and even if they do eveybody deserves second chances....i do too....

thank you for being there...

expectations...

i just hate people that judge....who are u to say what one should do or shouldn't? i mean at the end of the day we are all exactly the same...people with feelings, strenghts and weeknesses....being inlove, being childish, arguing, expressing arguments.....
i am not the persone to judge but i only wonder...what are my own expectations about life? what do i want of my life and of the one who stands by me...i want him to complete me and to teach me but in the same way be up to his own expectations...i would never see myself doing stupid things and then rely on him to solve it...i mean i have to take care of my own self and in the same time show a little bit of femininity, love, intelligence and most of all careness....
i dunno if this post has any sense...it is just a question inside me...how can someone accept so little around him/her....i mean one's expectations should be higher....or maybe it is just a mirror of that own person.....

following one of the possible paths of my life...

alla hjärtans dag....

so, the big day is here....14 february....

not at all cold outside, snow is slowly melting away....does it feel otherwise just because it is 14 february? not at all...and i begin to wonder: to have somebody to love beside u is one thing you should celebrate every day and cherish because it is one of the most beautiful things in the world...

when you are away from the family and in a far away land that has become little like my home :) every smile and friendship matters....

so i use this "'special'' day to thank everyone i met here and that made my stay absolutely fabulous.....

may you all have a great day even if you haven't found the love of your lives yet.....open your eyes....it might just be there waiting for you to come around..!!! and if not, don't give up cuz you haven't got anything to lose! :)

breaking down the wall...

the coldness of that day made her think at him...actually she was used to doing that everyday, conscious or not about it he was there in her mind...

she had seem him some time ago, but everytime she didn't manage to say anything...she was just petrified...

first time she couldn't find any words so she smiled. and he smiled back....which made her day...and one day they started talking, small words, meaningless and smile to eachother...they say that a smile can mean a lot of things, for her it was her world..just see that smile and be able to smile back... but it was hard. He acted as he was behind a very big and powerful wall which couldn't be broken down...she would have liked to show him who she really is and discover what was behind the wall...

suddenly that day, the shining sun over the snow and the cold gave her hope....hope that one day she will break down the wall and warm up the cold ice....

she had so much to give and no one to give to....and she still hopes...

ps: in the pic, me in the cold Swedish winter...

a torment of the soul....

why should one even bother to be as the others like him/her to be? why should you try to attract someone's attention by doing unnatural things? at the end of the day you have to be yourself because this is what makes you so attractive....and the masks fall down...
yes you are not perfect, yes maybe you don't dress in trend or maybe your walk is not perfect or maybe the music you listen to s**ks but some day you will find that person that considers you simply adorable...nothing less or nothing more....

and the road is not easy....but don't you give up because you will regret it some day....

at times like these i got really melacholic because it is the first in a considerable number of years that i am not home celebrating the birtdays of my dear friends.....but that if life...somehow my road brought me here..and somehow it will bring me to you too...

and all i can do is try...

smålands and sivans...

this post is for all the people i met during this semester at sivans even if they are from smålands or not...:) they are all incredible people and they are really trying to keep this going so that the campus will have a nice place to go to on a saturday night...:P

one of my first days here i decided to buy a nation card for smålands, so i did.....great choice:)
after a while i started to work at sivans and i have to say that there have been some really really nice nights....

of course you are awfully tired after one whole night there but u meet a lot of people, have fun, enjoy and speak a little swedish....

i must say that at first i thought more exchange students would use to opportunity to find some swedes in this way...because we all know it is not that easy....but somehow they aren't so many...

det känns jättebra nu, när jag känner några av er och kan säga: titta, jag jobbade med dig :P :P:P
jag tycker om att vara där och jag har verkligen lärt mig att man kan göra massa roliga saker för att skafa lite erfarenhet och för att få nya vänner och inte alls för pengar....för pengarna är faktiskt inte så viktiga.....det är klart att man kan inte leva utan det men till slut när jag går till sängs, är jag lycklig för jag träffade er...

tack tack och hoppas vi ses nästa termin även om jag ska börja jobba på riktigt... :P:P

dare to try...

great experience....these photos were taken on friday, in Leonardo room in our university Växjö, with the occasion of the Tyska - Språkdag...

if it wasn't for my friend Lavinia i would have never been there so THANK YOU a lot!!!

it was a great experience indeed, everybody talked about their relation to german language for future students. Lavi talked about her experience and the way german was useful in her work. I was the only person there who couldn't speak a word german but i could say a few things in swedish about my time here...:) it was incredible really talking in front of 2 hundred people....

somehow i feel that we have really progressed a lot during this time here and that it can only get better since we have some more time and a whole new semester ahead of us...

and somehow i remembered my first day in sweden last summer when i met a guy from Skåne and wasn't able to understand anything of what he was saying.....no it is totally different....:)

the moral out of this is dare to try to want for yourself something that is better and that you know you will accomplish, even though it takes a lot of work and time...nothing is impossible...with will, work, friendship and optimism everything will turn out just fine :):):)

the reason...

Someone really dear to my heart told me that i am in the middle of my life's adventure. This person is right....I am a 20 year old girl living in Sweden for an exchange programme...This past semester has been amazing and i have met people and seen great places all over the world...The world is so big that you may never know where you will settle down at some point in your life...

At some point everyone around me decided to have a blog so here is mine....
I can't really explain why i decided to write...Sometimes we feel that we know the reason why some things happen but in reality it is never like that...you only realize it long after...
and sometimes your wish is not granted right away and you fullfill it only when you least expect it....

my advice is....smile more often, cuz you might just meet the man of your dreams at the corner of the street, be positive about everything and dare to try....
don't regret the things that you did not even do....

so here i am, some time more in Sweden daring to be myself in a different world and daring to make the others smile with me.....:):)