time flies...

today i just noticed how time flies....everyday passes by us with us being more or less conscious about it...
i've been in sweden for 9 months and hopefully it will be some more time....meanwhile i am going home over the summer? but actually would that be my home? will i be feeling like home there? i've been feeling like home here, knowing lovely people that have really really been a pleasure to be around....
and now home? well the first image is my old red room, with the smell of candles i always have there, with the black old piano that reminds me of my childhood and the tone of clothes i have back home....but it is just material stuff....just stuff that i thought i could never live without and now after 9 months i can say that i can live a lifetime without them....
my parents....they are my home....but i am gonna see them in 3 weeks....
this sweden experience has really changed my perspective about what is more important in life...and it sounds maybe a triffel but actually i learned a pretty important thing...time is so short that you have to make the best of it and prioritize...you can't just go on thinking that you have the whole life ahead of you to do one thing or another....cuz you just might not know what tomorrow means....where tomorrow leads or who does tomorrow bring in your life.. it is all a matter of choice and each point can lead to some other one...you can just hope for the best way and that you will have TIME to lay back and say...i've been happy....

oneself...

before any kind of human interaction, one goes through a period when you don't know how to behave or to react...and even more when it is related to feelings....that just puts more pressure into the whole issue...
you fear that you will say the wrong things and that the other significant other won't like you but actually it is way better to be yourself....
sounds easier said than done.....
i have always loved this pre-period before a relationship and i consider it being one of the most beautiful things there are...it is a game - to give and receive, to act....but for how long?
actually why should you bother impress someone or be sth that you are not...actually at the end of the day when they realize that you were not like that you just create dissapointment....
but how do we interpretate signs? well i dunno....if i knew i wouldn't have been sitting here with my blog and i would be selling best-sellers on how to gain one's heart?
but i am no scientist.....i am just a girl hoping that same day i will get my prince charming on a white horse even if he might be not so handsome and riding a used bike.....
maybe the world would be so much easier if we all just started going out on the street and crying out hej mister!!! stop and give me a chance cuz i do like you!!! take my hand and just walk with me on this :)

well that would relaly be crazy wouldn't it?....where would all the romantic part have gone? the game, the tackling, the dreams, the waiting and moreover...the funny butterflies and the smile on your face :)