alla hjärtans dag....

so, the big day is here....14 february....

not at all cold outside, snow is slowly melting away....does it feel otherwise just because it is 14 february? not at all...and i begin to wonder: to have somebody to love beside u is one thing you should celebrate every day and cherish because it is one of the most beautiful things in the world...

when you are away from the family and in a far away land that has become little like my home :) every smile and friendship matters....

so i use this "'special'' day to thank everyone i met here and that made my stay absolutely fabulous.....

may you all have a great day even if you haven't found the love of your lives yet.....open your eyes....it might just be there waiting for you to come around..!!! and if not, don't give up cuz you haven't got anything to lose! :)

breaking down the wall...

the coldness of that day made her think at him...actually she was used to doing that everyday, conscious or not about it he was there in her mind...

she had seem him some time ago, but everytime she didn't manage to say anything...she was just petrified...

first time she couldn't find any words so she smiled. and he smiled back....which made her day...and one day they started talking, small words, meaningless and smile to eachother...they say that a smile can mean a lot of things, for her it was her world..just see that smile and be able to smile back... but it was hard. He acted as he was behind a very big and powerful wall which couldn't be broken down...she would have liked to show him who she really is and discover what was behind the wall...

suddenly that day, the shining sun over the snow and the cold gave her hope....hope that one day she will break down the wall and warm up the cold ice....

she had so much to give and no one to give to....and she still hopes...

ps: in the pic, me in the cold Swedish winter...

a torment of the soul....

why should one even bother to be as the others like him/her to be? why should you try to attract someone's attention by doing unnatural things? at the end of the day you have to be yourself because this is what makes you so attractive....and the masks fall down...
yes you are not perfect, yes maybe you don't dress in trend or maybe your walk is not perfect or maybe the music you listen to s**ks but some day you will find that person that considers you simply adorable...nothing less or nothing more....

and the road is not easy....but don't you give up because you will regret it some day....

at times like these i got really melacholic because it is the first in a considerable number of years that i am not home celebrating the birtdays of my dear friends.....but that if life...somehow my road brought me here..and somehow it will bring me to you too...

and all i can do is try...