stop time...

two days before i am supposed to hand in my bachelor thesis...only two days....
i want to stop time.....i want to stop and cry out to the world about how i feel...the enormous amount of feelings that are in my heart now....fear, anger, desperation, uncertainty, hope, anxiousness, sadness, love...
and i cannot cry it out because there is no time for that...no time for me...who says it's going to be after that? it's only a couple of weeks left...no time no time no time....but i can't really just ignore all these feelings...i can't leave here without these settled out in some way...any way...is there a way? don't think so....and why does everything have to happen in the worse timing ever? why? why is it always that life gives us a frustrating lesson that some things cannot be controlled...they just happen....you want it or not....

if i at least knew....but i don't....