dagens läxa....

what i learned today...never get too excited on something....i am sooo angry on myself for always being this overidelistic person that thinks that everything should go as planned, or that sometimes things are easy...
you never know how it's going to turn out and therefore why put your hopes up....they just fall back from waaaay too high...
oh well...throwing away these idealistic thoughts with a warm shower, tea and a wonderful week...:)

help...

it's impossible to climb the big mountain alone...you need that helping hand that offers to reach out when you're in need...together is everything, alone is nothing....

love and romance..

yes i did it...i read twilight in one day....after being totally skeptical about it and refusing to read it i made it..and i couldn't leave the book from my hands for a whole day...
now the first volume is finished and i still want to read more...
however the book made me think about love and romance..one of the reasons i liked it so much is that some of the feelings she describes in the book i have defintely felt at some point in my life...
and there the big question comes...is there such a thing as the outmost romance...so perfect as it becomes cheesy? and the obvious answer is no....we are too caught up today in playing games and are so twisted into our day to day reality to remember how it feels to be deeply, unconditionally and irrevocably in
love with someone... we are defintetly not romantic anymore...
romance sometimes scares...of course no one of us is perfect and if we end up looking for the right one we might spend all our life in the search...we don't want to scare the one we want with too much romance right?

when we are inlove we get sometimes so scared not only by using romance but also about admitting that we arebecause we don't want to get hurt in the end...
i find nothing wrong with exposing feelings...i don't understand why the world sometimes sets this limits on what we should/could/ought to do...
everyone should have the right to stretch for his own happiness however cheesy it sounds and not be afraid...feelings are so hard to understand so why try to set limits?

oh yes...i am going to sleep tonight with a cup of hot chocolate and dream away about my own dose of romance....

spring outside, spring inside...

today was a absolutely lovely spring day! spring has set it's foot in england and this time it is here to stay hopefully!

birds sing, the sun warms up the faces and hearts of people and it's hard not to smile and stept back and enjoy it!

in spring our body comes back to life, our minds are awakened and our hearts...our hearts just flourish more than ever...

i love spring...i just love the feeling that everything turns back to life, there is a joyful hope about spring and about the flourishing hearts...

and i am not going to do anything bout it..just lay back and enjoy!

worries and hopes...

there is one thing on my learn how list...stop worrying so much and stop overthinking too much...
i don't really know how to do that? how can you change something that is so typically you in essence? it's always the same story that can be described as following: i worry about a certain thing, my heart becomes this tiny piece and it feels like it could crawl under a carpet until the thing that i worry about could dissapear completely and then after the outcome i notice that i worried way too much or that the outcome anyhow wasn't how i had expected it to be...that's basically it...

now this little figurative images applies to a looot of situations of course..and yes sometimes worry is good cuz it's a sign that something is maybe not going as it should...
while i am writing this i am actually worried about a lot of things: the outcome of my huge spring breaktrip, the applications for the master programmes, future....
i know that we can never say how the future develops and i am not trying to do that as last time has showed that you should NEVER say never indeed...but maybe i can make some wishes and hope a lot a lot a lot that they will come true and that the worries are in vain...

so yes, hoping hoping hoping and stop worrying...

being inlove...

being inlove doesn't care about how many times you've been dissapointed because this doesn't manage to affect it...

being inlove takes a great deal of time and passion from your life but it's one of the most beautiful and rewarding feelings...

being inlove is being afraid that you'll lose the one you love before you have a chance to show how much you care...

being inlove is not about playing the game, it makes you mess up the rules of the game and at the end of the day you stop playing that and be yourself...

being inlove implies that at one point in time, the person you're inlove with is going to see the real you, not a positively modified version of yourself...just you...with your flaws and talents, with your bad parts and your good parts....there is no escape...

being inlove makes you open that doors you thought you would never open and let that person in...

being inlove means sometimes missing someone so bad that you would do anything to be together...

being inlove is not always about something definite like dating, relationships or whatever state....it's sometimes impossible to set in a certain cathegory...it is just being inlove!

being inlove is hurtful but being inlove is simply beautiful...