spring outside, spring inside...

today was a absolutely lovely spring day! spring has set it's foot in england and this time it is here to stay hopefully!

birds sing, the sun warms up the faces and hearts of people and it's hard not to smile and stept back and enjoy it!

in spring our body comes back to life, our minds are awakened and our hearts...our hearts just flourish more than ever...

i love spring...i just love the feeling that everything turns back to life, there is a joyful hope about spring and about the flourishing hearts...

and i am not going to do anything bout it..just lay back and enjoy!

worries and hopes...

there is one thing on my learn how list...stop worrying so much and stop overthinking too much...
i don't really know how to do that? how can you change something that is so typically you in essence? it's always the same story that can be described as following: i worry about a certain thing, my heart becomes this tiny piece and it feels like it could crawl under a carpet until the thing that i worry about could dissapear completely and then after the outcome i notice that i worried way too much or that the outcome anyhow wasn't how i had expected it to be...that's basically it...

now this little figurative images applies to a looot of situations of course..and yes sometimes worry is good cuz it's a sign that something is maybe not going as it should...
while i am writing this i am actually worried about a lot of things: the outcome of my huge spring breaktrip, the applications for the master programmes, future....
i know that we can never say how the future develops and i am not trying to do that as last time has showed that you should NEVER say never indeed...but maybe i can make some wishes and hope a lot a lot a lot that they will come true and that the worries are in vain...

so yes, hoping hoping hoping and stop worrying...

being inlove...

being inlove doesn't care about how many times you've been dissapointed because this doesn't manage to affect it...

being inlove takes a great deal of time and passion from your life but it's one of the most beautiful and rewarding feelings...

being inlove is being afraid that you'll lose the one you love before you have a chance to show how much you care...

being inlove is not about playing the game, it makes you mess up the rules of the game and at the end of the day you stop playing that and be yourself...

being inlove implies that at one point in time, the person you're inlove with is going to see the real you, not a positively modified version of yourself...just you...with your flaws and talents, with your bad parts and your good parts....there is no escape...

being inlove makes you open that doors you thought you would never open and let that person in...

being inlove means sometimes missing someone so bad that you would do anything to be together...

being inlove is not always about something definite like dating, relationships or whatever state....it's sometimes impossible to set in a certain cathegory...it is just being inlove!

being inlove is hurtful but being inlove is simply beautiful...

the english adventure...

it's been almost one month of the english adventure this week! a month full with novelties: moving into a house with new people and sharing it, making new friends, beginning new courses, a lot of new travelling, new feelings, new ways of maintaining contact with the dear ones.. and the list could go on and on....

there are so many impressions of this one month that i would probably have to write a lot of pages only on it...instead i want to say that i do like it..even if there were times when i badly wanted back....i was missing people, the ones dear, my family...especially having my parents around even if they had been just a call away...now they are just a skype-call away....

i;ve grew to appreciate my mornings, the wake up call that one of my housemates always gives me when i do sleep too much and i would be late for school...the habit of always eating together..it's fantastic...smell of fresh coffee in the morning and just knowing that hej..you are not alone..someone else likes breakfast company...and let's be serious..who likes to eat alone...i don't!

the girls i've met here are the sweetest...i don't know what have i done without them...i tend to get very comfortable and when i feel ok i stop looking for people..which is probably not good...but i like them...and getting away for spring break is actually going to be hard....we've had pretty good laughs...

i study a lot of political philosophy and i love it...i was actually wondering why haven';t i done something like that before....

travelling....oh yes! i said in a earlier blog that i was going to travel as much as i can...and i did actually!! was already in amsterdam and paris and plan dublin and a bit more...romania for spring break...

i try to keep contact with the people back home...but it;s hard...sometimes you get absorbed into everything here....and even if i might seem that i am forgetting some people i am not! just so you know i am thinking at everyone of you!

love to you....

puss o kram!

ps: even if this is not like the other blogs i've written i really wanted to have an update about what has happened...

valentine's day...

any day can become valentine's day as long as you appreciate the one near you...it can be a whole week, a whole month, just a night or just a walk...it doesn't matter...because it's about appreciating feelings that you receive and giving back....

so it should feel like valentine's other days right?

waiting for valentine's....

missing....

tonight i am in a terrible missing everything mood and it's not only the faraway feeling because of England...
i hate being alone...that's one thing that i haven't been able to adjust to throughout these years....
i don't understand why life plays with us in such twisted ways and there is always a bad timing for something...i don't understand why in the end we end up being alone in way or another...
how far are we allowed to dream? if we dream too much than the wake-up call to reality will be too painful and being hurt is nothing desirable...
i miss all the special people in my life and i miss my family..especially now when the future is hard to foresee...hard to see when will we be together again, hard not to think at them....don't want to be alone...

new turn of the road...

at the beginnings of this blog the road had led me to sweden....
at present the road has led me to England....it has been quite a challange all the way and i loved every moment of it even if i had my tough moments like anyone of us...
england...i've been here a week and i like it...so far..
i think every beginning is quite difficult before you get in a real life, make friends and make your own way...
it takes always time and question is that you cannot become too dependant either cuz it;s only for 4 months...so live the moment, lay back and enjoy..that's just it...